September 21st, 2020

Hugh SF Music

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Some thoughts:
Maybe this is dumb or naive but when I was a teenager I thought guys would be more likely to be attracted to me when I was an adult because they would be less hung up on looks. That never changes.
I also didn't know what stupid fucking Asperger's even was, much less that I was stuck with it, until I was 36. I thought I just needed to find the right job. In US culture, you are judged by your job. That's the first thing you usually get asked. (I don't know if that's a bit different in other countries.) I've had people I just met react very badly when I said I was on disability. I'm beginning to think I should just lie. I hate lying. Also, I don't do it at all well, especially on no notice. On top of this, a lot of people either think Asperger's is not real or they lump me in with some severely autistic little boy they saw on TV who screams all the time. One person even told me I couldn't possibly have it because I don't rock back and forth.
You know you're an adult when it occurs to you that you're smoking weed in order to help you fall asleep.
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