Chapter 6: Envy
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I'm not supposed to be the sort of person who gets trapped in abusive relationships.
That happens to weak people.
That happens to STUPID people.
I may be an obnoxious son of a bitch but I'm smart and I'm not supposed to take any crap off anybody, so what the hell is going on?
And Wilson of all people.
Everyone thinks he's so NICE.
I can save all these people but I never could fix my own fucking life.
I couldn't give a shit if everyone knew I was bi but I'd be humiliated beyond belief if everybody knew my boyfriend smacked me around.
They'd either say I had it coming or they'd pity me. I don't think I could stomach either.
People think I'm so confident. They all have a luxury I don't.
They can show vulnerability once in a while.